[BACK] :: Kau pergi....

For the 2nd time...
i made a decision again...

errrmmm,,
xtaw laa...
it goin' too complicated right now...
btw,, i must make it easy..
for this time..
it'll goin' forever...

just like i said b4..
once i made a decision...i'll never come back...
but..
i turn back to me...
decision is not the easy thing to made...
u must think b4 reach the final 'dot'...

by hock or by cope...
i'll face it...
when i leaves...i must go..
what i need...a spirit from my best friends..
even..i knew that..i'll faces all the 'lashing' from the traitor..
but..it just a life being...
we just an actor in this world..
and the award will b given to the best actor at the world 'afterlife'...
 i believe if that...

[Shah Alam] :: -waiting-leaving-

Its just 4 days left..

1st paper for EGP ::[done]::

last paper tomorrow for Interactive English..

errgggghh..!

it's so soffocating!

mylife = for waiting...

da laaa i made the fuck decision on my life...

act without full thinking...

decide without asked others opinion...

that was happend to me....worst!

N now...i return back...

i believe for the phrase of..

           | "Hujan emas di negeri org...

                  Hujan Batu di negeri sendiri"  |
it's much better stone rain in my country...

b'coz i know which part is the save place...

even i will missed 'gold rain' in others country right...??

N now...all i settle up...

send all letters...to college N' to my employees...

just need wait 7 days workin' notice and approval of tranfers.....

n....goodbye  SHAH ALAM...!!

i'll end up my study at seremban...

n facing all the old probs that i left before..

as what Mr Jawad said to me this mornink...

        | "We can't run from problems, but solve!"

even...i being his mentee for a while...

thanks for the lesson...it help me much...

N' for my lecturers...

thanks coz accepting me back...even..i knew... i  made a lot of trouble there...

i hope you all understand bout my situation...

it complicated for me!

[work] ::: Manager...??? please b a bit smarter...!

16th April 2011..
i'm being a formal worker of Chicken Rice Shop...!
with SOCSO...n' PERKESO..
huurrrggghhh...
what ever...
for the first..
i tot..it coollll..
i just took it as my parttime job...
since i not close to my housemate...
i think better i bring myself outward..
other than i wasted mytime...sleep just like snakes after ate...
than...asked for money from my mum...
better i find a job...
after couple days i searching for the job...finally i found one..
it's TCRS...

i met..Nafie..
Ayie..Rubie and Wan...all this person are too close with me...
but..i met the older one too..
named Rodiah...
errrggghh...she's soo irritating..
i dont know what's her probs...??
felt like hell when i'm get closer to her...
yesss,,, i do not mind if she ask me for a walk when my break time..
but...when i hve woe\rk to do..
pleassee don't force me to do your work!
i  do your work without any pay...!
yess,, i'm not statisfy...

sooo..what ever it's...
tomorrow i'll send u my 7 days resignation notice...
since there hve a lot staff..i think better i make a move..than i'll show my temper to u...
that all for my entrees today...
next time i'll post it more!

[College] ::: ALL DONE!

ALL DONE..!
yess...
i want get back mylife..!!
eventhough i knew it's bit impposible..
but i must try..
there no false if we trying..
try to rectify the situation...
try to make it cool..
and use the life flows smoothly..

errrggghh..!
this time..
i MUST think FULLY wisely b4 make any FINAL decision b4 i humilating myself again and again...
yeeesssss...!
if b4 this some of them think that i'm stupid OR what...
but i'm not...
i just 'time victim' or malay's say 'mangsa keadaan'...
i don't either it's relevant or not i'm use that word...
at this time that's the right word to describe which 'shoes' i'm...

[place]-[time]-[cent]-[critical thinking] = my life...

just like an egg at the end of a horn...
i dont know should i put myself at it...
but it's me..
always with 'kecelaruan'...'kekelamkabutan' and..'tergese2'...
til i cant see which 'kaca' and which 'permata'...
atlast...
it ruined mylife...

btw,,
i dont know how to thanks for someone..
for sure..they are the person that hve sacrifice a lot for me..!

'i want mylife back!'

[Life Journey] :: Gve me wing N' made me fly.. :'(

"U gve me wings and made me fly...
U touch my hand and i could touch the sky..."

Thanks to those that always gve me strength and a lot of support...
i can't repay it at all..
i just can appriciated it..
but..
i surrender...
i gve up to myself..
i believe..that..living alone and make yourself independent aren't easy as what i tought before..
it's harder than what i claim on it...huuuurrrmm,,

frankly,
i decided to return backk to my hometown...
if i'm permitted to do that..and accept to my old college back...

almost 2 months i'm in Shah Alam,,
i learnt a lot!
Shah Alam is not my place..and it's not a perfect time for me be in here...
Shah Alam growth me..n' told me the reality of life..

and...lasting that i learnt..

"Think before make any decision"

think wisely..

rushing will not offer u a statisfy...

also a last minute planning...that was  me before i came to Shah Alam...

i think ran out from problems without solving it much easier..but..huuhhh..! it's getting harder..

yesterday..

i met my Seremban College Mentor n' program manager..

i gve them thumbs up..

i knew that...my past decision make them disspointed...

changes without tell them..thwn now, i asked their help for transfering to seremban back..

such a stupid man i'm..

muiz...after this pleaseeee...!! think it properly...

u always make a lot of false decision...

N' now....they still gve their hand for helping me...

even, it's goin' harder for then faced student like me...

but...at this moment..

they are the only hope that i've...

huurrrmmm,,

that's all for now...

i ran out of my word...

next time..wait for my college transferring result..

pray the best for me...

touched <3ed..

Mr d'Dean..